So I’ve been blogging for some time now. A long time now, actually. I started right before my son was born and he turns 5 in November. I didn’t have any idea what I was doing then and I still don’t, but in different ways.
From the get-go, it seems like I’ve tried to make blogging as difficult for myself as possible. Most of my posts were/are long, I never defined myself within a niche and somehow I got pigeon-holed as “the guy who writes about The Bachelor/Bachelorette.”
And now, I’m at this point with traditional blogging and what I’m doing and I’m wondering if I’ve reached my logical conclusion.
I’m a freelancer now. Did you know that about me? That’s another thing I’ve done poorly: build community. So many other people have been better at it than me. Part of it comes from this thing where it feels self-indulgent to ramble on about myself.
But yeah, I’m a freelancer. Mostly, I write scripts and short video treatments along with a handful of other semi-regular jobs. I’m available for hire and always looking for new projects. I don’t even know if most of you knew what I did for a living in any capacity, ever and that was mostly intentional, because, again, the self-indulgent thing.
Being a freelancer is great because you have a lot of freedom, but it also sucks because of the non-guaranteed nature of everything. At my old job, I knew what my payday would look like every two weeks until the sun burned out. But not so in this new world.
Right now, you’re probably like, “Wow for someone who worries about self-indulgence, you are SUPER talking about yourself a lot right now.” I know. I totally am. Completely guilty. Let me move more towards the point
I’ve co-founded a podcast network that is 100% free.
I’ve co-founded a TV blog that is 100% free.
I’ve faithfully written here for 100% free.
I’ve written what must be like 28 billion words on The Bachelor / Bachelorette for 100% free.
At some point, all that freeness has to pay off, right? Like a down payment of sorts. And in a sense, it has. I have faithful readers that I love dearly. They support me, give me feedback and champion the things I write. And (rabbit trail alert) you can’t understand how tremendous that is for someone who writes.
Writing is extraordinarily lonely. You expose yourself through your words and then hand it over to others so when someone affirms that vulnerability and encourages it, the feeling is amazing. For those of you that have done that for me, I’m seriously forever indebted. For others, if there is someone you read that you are super passionate about, let them know or celebrate them because it’s the greatest gesture in the world to a writer.
But, at the same time, I’ve reached this point where I have to begin re-orienting the pieces on my chessboard.
More to that point, I’m going to have to start producing more premium content and less free. More specifically, as much as it pains me, I’m going to either have to start charging a nominal fee for the Bachelorette recaps or I’ll have to give it up.
The time investment is such (along with everything else) that it doesn’t make sense otherwise, so starting next Tuesday, you’ll have the option to read the recap for 0.99 or buy a season pass for $8 (for the 8 remaining episodes).
If that bothers you, enrages you or makes you think I’m being greedy, I totally get that and I truly am sorry.
If that means you’ll never read another recap again, I totally get that too and no hard feelings. In a perfect world, I would have a patron that would sponsor the recap and justify my time on it and all the readers would support that patron’s company and everything would be like the best ever.
But, unless someone like that swoops in, asking for money just has to be part of the equation now.
So that’s basically it. I did feel compelled to post about things instead of just doing it and expecting people to figure it out. There’s probably going to be some rearranging around the blog as I more formally shift gears towards more premium-ish content. More than likely, this blog will become more of the hub for my different activities and less a place where I blog regularly but we’ll see how it all shakes out.
Thanks for your understanding, your past support and your hopeful future support. It means so very much.